I hope this Fall Festival brings a better time for me. Not sure which way to turn now. I feel lost and alone even though logically I know I am not. Ended up the price for the new path I chose was too much for me to endure. I just want peace. A part of me the part that usually controls me tells me to run and hide. And I did for a bit, but thanks to my guild leader I am awake and trying to enjoy the Fall Festival. After falling for a short time I find it to be a twist in the gut to get the costume I got this time. And hope I do not make too bad a mockery of it.....But I will preserve and play the part I was given.

Seems I am weaker then I thought... but through knowing ones weakness comes strength. I did what I seriously thought I wouldn't do. And was not until this last turn... until the very last moment in truth...when faced directly with the choice that I changed. Had one told me a quarter cycle ago I would do what I've done I would have told them to seek mental rehab....yet it has happened. Though my intentions are the seeking of knowledge, in particular it is the new magic that I crave. Am I an idiot?... Probably. But the choice is made, and this new path I must walk.

The past few turns have been lovely! I've found some happiness in the day to day things again. Finding fun things to do with friends and simply enjoying life at the moment... though a few antics have turned heads. I find myself a mentor again as well with several students under my guidance, I hope I am able to lead them as well as I was lead. This turn it's self found me at a party of if you were a god or goddess what would you be. It was delightfully fun! And to see what everyone chose and created will probably keep me amused for days to come! And I was shocked to learn that if I were indeed a goddess... heavens forbid! I would have a few willing followers!!! But all was in jest and fun, and the real world called again!